Mon, Nov 27th 06
Wo. 5 more hrs to my 2nd paper. CN2123. Wondering whether can take it down or not. Think i'll need to do decently well for it to get a B or a B+. Hope ba. Pray for my form. By either way, no regrets. Haha. Despite being so slack for so long. Every sem want to be more mugger, or studious i should say it.
Once again, pray for the best tmr ba. Luck luck luck. Like always, i'll aim to do better next sem. Someone discipline me. ME.
mamadrama sia...haha
Sat, 18 Nov
Wo.. thought of blogging again. After seeing so many pple's blog. Hah.
It's really quiet in hall on a Friday night. Especially when there's no mahjong. Haha. Trying to get some lsm into my head.
Was talking to Kathy just now. She said i'm pessimistic. Wo. I was pretty suprised to hear that. Haha.. but i'm definitely less optimistic than before la. That's definite. Also dunno why. Must be the hard knocks in life la. That's the good thing about doing commitments?? Get some hard knocks so that you won't end up like a geek with nothing but equations. (No offence to geeks.)
Aiya. December come then see la. Hope can get a good break. Gonna work hard on Takraw(not Sepak!!) and hopefully going back to YVIP will be fun(if i'm even needed). Miss the YV days. Haha.. see if i can relive it with just a few old people.
1st Jan 2007. Rebirth. Hopefully i get my energy back and it will be a happy new year! Also 2nd anniversary of getting on. Heh.
K. that's enough cock. Now get back to your books, Wee.
Life of a candle
Aiya.. this post is supposed to go on yesterday. But well.. here's the life of a candle.
Remembered this from YVIP '01. It was the campfire. There all of us were holding tealights, and Shu Hui told us the story. I can't recall the exacts words, but this is what i have:
' We are just like these candles. When we burn, we give out light to brighten up other's life. As we pass on the light and light up other people's light, we realise that these candles combined can light up this dark place. This is now. But after YV, what happens is up to us. Some of us choose to keep it burning, while some of us decides to put out the light. But as we burn, we realise it will hurt, just like how the wax pricks us. Our flame will also get smaller and soon, drown in the wax.....'
Forgot le. But there was the pouring of wax part as well.
Haha. I really thought it was pretty cool and meaningful. My candle has been burning for a very long time ever since. Maybe it wasn't that into volunteering, but there were my friends and other commitments. How apt is the term 'burnt out'. Feeling burn out again. At this point, u wonder whether burning yourself for responsibility and for another few hundred people that you don't really know is worth it or not. Cos to be 'gei gao', most of the time, there's nothing you get out of it.
Actually i don't really mind that. But sometimes i wonder whether i should be better illuminating the lives of the people closer to me. People like my family and my close friends outside. Not that i'm not bothered about them la, but there is definitely less time for them.
Eh... still got myself. That's y i'm so broke, so often tired, sleepy, hungry and single. Haha.
But i believe in memories as well. That's y i doing all these now. Creating memories.
Hmm.. turn off the lights, will there still be light? Will there be other lights shining? But well.. if everybody think so then off light, then surely got no light. Haiz.
Meanwhile, make do with a new wick and more wax la. It'll come in December i think.
Meanwhile, the candle will burn. But it need some recharge. Otherwise really candle in the wind.
Blogging and halloween nite
Guess i know why people blog. To rant, to remember stuff. Yea quite true. At least i can see what i was thinking some time back. But maybe for me i want things to be different hey....
interesting and happy posts >>> rants!
Just thought i saw a fire elsewhere. Haha.. small issue. Some things make me wonder, ponder. What have i done to be such a 'lousy friend' that makes people's life so miserable?? Am i really that cmi?? Haiz. I just can't get it.
Really nice of my ru lai fos to give me something for Halloween. Haha.. just that they not so pro. But know it's them la.. The frantic escape on slippers was pretty loud though. I bet we could hear it from lobby. Haha..
Nite fright nite. Though i didn't go cos i couldn't wait and my stomach can't wait. But at least got to watch th Ju- On which was supposedly nice. Wah.. abit lame la. Interesting but lame. Beats pulse though. That's why i really really dun like to watch horror shows.( in cinema la)
Things will turn better. Cos i believe in it. There's no such thing such as a smooth fantastic ride. Sure got some cocks up one. The rough patch's just something we have to go through in life ba.
YEa. 3 vulgarities since i woke. avg of 1 per 4 hrs?? that's alr super good liao la. Get better!!
20 pages.... aiya...
Wake up Wee!!
