Life in a cauldron
Haiz. Retiring also cannot retire in peace.
Just realised i had a blog. haha. So use lor.
Suddenly become abit stressed. Argh.
Have been staying 3 years in a cauldron. Finally becoming heated up well enough to vaporise liao. Soon soon. Once i vaporise, i should be vanishing ba.
If the FIFA not giving prizes to the joey bartons and ronaldos, Blatter sure kena. Become platter. Alamak. dodo bird!! why lidat?!?!
But actually. Not first time got problem lar. I'll take care of it. Go find some underwear.
( Please take Da Vinci Code 1101 to understand.)
Macham got pple read. Waha.
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suddenly felt abit hungry.
i guess feeling sian makes me hungry.
then i thought of vitagen.
I've bought them. Not meant for the theives those. (curse them should they touch it)
They have an expiry date. Really hope she'll get to drink it.
then pass to her lor...
erm. abit different?
Blank
It's 5am. No one to talk to, no mood to talk to. Neither in the mood to sleep or read.
Suddenly i feel so blank, so lost.
My fellow S league players are having emo blogs. I'm feeling emo too. But somehow, i can't seem to express it.
missing becomes slight anger, upset, and disbelief.
Oh well, doubt she's feeling any better. The thought of becoming distant just gives me the shudders.
Crisis, more crisis, more crisis. seems that i got so many crisis suddenly. Wat's up with my life sia.
Gonna tide thru this.
Gonna talk to her, wait for her.
Meanwhile. Try to get some sleep? Hope she can sleep too.
Felt like calling but ya, give her the respect instead of being irritating. So what i can do is to wait for sms, wait for her to come back to hall.
We exchanged thousands of messages..
now a new one seemed so precious. so encouraging, exciting, then disappointing.
Ok. Enough whining for now. better end with some resolution.
Bring her back, make her happy, make us happy.
Boo.
End of a sem
Finally the sem is coming to an end. It's a boring day in hall.zzz
Poor anger management. I mishandled the way i settled the ponding. Dun think i'd flared up that easily even in the past. Zzz. Haiz. Dun pond anymore liao la. Period. Just being the coordinator for most sessions makes it seem that i'm always the devil head. Haiz. Everyone say say, need someone to action mah...
But the crux is that how come i flare!? Not usual me. Perhaps boredom lack of sleep and chronic fatigue. But also misunderstanding la. Guess i frightened her bad. The dustbin was supposed to be a joke. Not that i'll throw u all the way in? Haiz.
Anyway, don't swell. Or at least, stop swelling by monday!!
Speaking of which, i need rest. Plenty of it. Not in terms of sleep, but mental relaxation? That's why it is unlikely i'll take up part time. Especially when i'll need all the time in the world to do this and that.
Hopefully rest does wonders la. 2007 haven been the best of years so far. Hopefully things will get better.
Oh well, it's effectively the last day of the sem le. And it is her last day in Sheares i guess. Guess i won't see her for a long long time. Hope things get better for her when the next sem starts. I sincerely hope. It's not guilt, but concern.
Dunno why things end up lidat. Haiz. I'll remember u, my friend.
Haiz, jerk, ass, no life and boring. Plus unkempt cos i can't cut hair for now. I'll change it. First i need inspiration. Alot of it. =p
Final run in..
Waiting for food to digest.. and listening to Eternity(Memories of lights and waves).
Surfing around and thought just drop post.
It's been an eventful March. All the events, all the chores, the tests, and the end of a saga.
Oh well... It's good to close it, cos some things are just not meant to be. I'm sorry. U'll move on. U will.
One final week of action. Or high action. Finally everything's coming to a close. My tenure as 'Chelsea Manager'. It's a regret i can't get the players to see the same vision as me. It's really tough when there are no oldies to stand along u. I guess that's y the masterplan didn't take off well. Not forgetting the disappointing moments that my players gave.
I guess i gave it all for this block. But maybe the dynamics just weren't great enough. It isn't poor la. Just not good. Think standing alone to fight is something that's very tiring. but it doesn't stop me, cos that's passion.
I've been very ge zhua i think. Doing things out of the scope. I guess that's interest and responsiblity combined. DND tickets, Amplitudes, Uncensored. I've distributed all tics. Haha. But surely i won't go alone rite. So jio everyone, then end up making myself busy. Haha..
But i guess that's me. Forever geh zhua. But helping people makes me who i am. It's just me, not just my job. End of the day, it is just very tiring la. But oh well. I think it's worth it.
Perhaps being taken for granted at times suck. Like pple expecting me to help them jio this jio that. Kao. Your comm got 20 pple leh. Ask also ask in a nicer tone la... Hate it when it sounds like a demand.
The manager has taken lots of external arrows. He just doesn't want to pass it to his players. Cos it is not their job. Especially when there are complains abt being on the pitch for 90 mins. how to give extra?
But once again, it's been wonderful la. For those who supported. You're all that i can ask for. Really. Being there and supportive, you guys rock. Big time. You guys drive me on.
But i survived. Hee. Last week le. Let's end it nice. I wonder what will happen to next yr's Block. I pray it will be better.
One week more.
( This post is not meant to be understood. Haha. Like got pple read =p)
Wah i think this song's cool. Heh. Coupled with the dance, i think it's very nice!
Not bad. Arts fest makes u more arty and refined. Makes u dress better than going lab.
Sleep deprivation
Wah.. pretty tiring sia, but still got quite some stuff to do. Don't lose sight of the goal man..
Hmm.. think wun have readership anymore.. When u know it's gonna be like that, y ask? Oh well.
Hmm.. just recalled,
"With greater powers comes greater responsibility"
What you do really affects pple.
Abit the sleep deprived, or put it simple, sick la. haha. Gonna catch up with my work. I have to.
Comon wee, comon!!
It's raining..
Quite suprised that this blog has readership. haha. Supposed to be part of an account for the blk c diary only.
Supper lorry was pretty good. Looks like many pple enjoyed it. But alot of hiccups here and there. Yea. Need better anger management i guess. Even if it is something really pek chek, dun explode!! Not that i really did la. But could have done better. Cos after half a day, it will be better liao.
the pushing of lorry up the slope was quite an adventure. The lorry ran out of fuel at PGP i guess. We pushed it back to sheares. Next time will just rent from outside company la.
We tried to catch the sunrise, but it ended up with playing charades and waiting for daybreak. Haha.. Abit wasted didn't really cock around with my batch dudes and the seniors. Lack of opportunity. Wasted la they go back early. By the time we reach Geylang they alr disappear liao. Wasted.
Enjoyable. and good job Blk comm and Blk C. Looks like we need to raise some funds for damages liao.
Anyway, guess it will go abit lower key from now. Cos this one week is really taking its toll. Running up and down to settle comms allocation with the resident and the chair is though man, and mind boggling. I dun even know whether helping them can guarantee a stay for them, but i try my best la. Abit the ' ge zua'? But knowing that u can help, u just gonna do your best. Maybe they won't remember me, but at least they will have a happy time here. Anw, plus this plus that equals to sick no sleep.
Think i may need to learn to better allocate stuff. But that means less welfare for them. Think think.
Haha next week i alr got like 2 days occupied. 3 more days i believe sure got some things to fill it. Blk comm is one. But look at it as 2 days free lor.
Putting these to pen means i'll look foward and stop complaining. Haha. So just wait for the rain to stop la.
Haha rest and recover!! Watch soccer, watch webcast. 2007, good year!!
Mon, Jan 15th 07
hmm.. just thought of penning down what i thought last night. haha. Reminded by all the sad msn nics:
If darius wee was never in swoc, the hall should be still the same.
If darius wee was never in swoc, perhaps he wouldn't turn so bitter.
Haha.. what hazel and der they all said make some sense. I'm turning bitter!! Dunno leh. But i think i'm quite different. LEss of all the good things. So 2007 must try to be better ba.
Well, i had my critics, but i made great frens. But.. dunno why like εεδΊθ£ lidat.
haha. sometimes still reminded of that story. But oh well. It's been 2 yrs 14 days!! Move on boy. Move on.
Haha. Good day!
